All cuz of you....hrmph

Great! My colleague messed up my mind now...=( Why i cant stand to my decision? *sigh*

I was at my cube doing my work as usual today. Then my colleague came up to me and said :

C: Wei, Im going 3rd floor (im working at 4th floor) to ask bout CFA. Do you wana follow me?

M: *shake my head vigorously* Yes yes!! Wait for me...

And off we went.....

Asked bout the details,price,etc....And now, Im tempted....FML

Its all my colleague fault....ish ish...

Haiz....How laa how laa..T.T

Its Complicated

There`s alot of things happened lately. Sumthing I dont understand and weird. It all happened in workplace and 2 ppl in the same department.

First case, here is this guy, lets call him P.. He was caught "fooling" around in the office and chatting with me during work hours helping his friend to pursue me and "brain wash" my mind. After chatting with him for sometime, I told him that the matter is between me and his friend, and we will settle the problem ourselves and ask him to do his work. After that, there was some complain about him and since then, he was not on talking terms with me.

I dont know what happened but its very weird. I dont understand.

Then , this second case, there was this guy, lets call him, D. Frankly, I feel that he`s kinda cool that he dont really talk much in the office and i ask him for his skype and msn. At 1st, we were just Hi-Bye friend and nothing much happened until 1 day that he helped me with my personal thing.

Then, we started to sms each other quite often. Come one fine day, that he asked me out for movie in which i reply him ok but not confirm. However, my close friend whom working in same department with him knew bout this and said that i`ve cheated on her. She said that i`ve hurted her feelings.

What happened? I did wrong? What is happening actually? I really dont know.

I feel so sux right now. For being treated like that. Can someone help me????

Grounded? Curfew? Protected?

Hmm...For those who know me well, they will know that Im the only child in my family. Which means, Im very well taken care by both of my parents especially my mum. And, Im very very much appreciate with what they have been giving me all this long. Their concern, love, care ....everything...

For, I know they want me to have the very best of everything that they can give me. So, Im very well "protected" by them. Im not boasting but sometimes, I do feel that its a little too over "protected" that I feel pressure at times.

For instance, I don`t always have the privillages to go out late nite with my friends or having nite life like most of my friends. However, I do understand the motive or intention by my parents. Their reason is being simple : they simply do not want their only child to be hurt by people or being bullied by other people. They scared for my safety. I really do understand.

I was given some green light from mum this few months for going out late nite with friends but however, i was given some time frame where i needed to be home by a certain time. But, most of the time, i failed to do so cause , i misuse the opportunity. And its my bad. But , i really enjoyed the time and will got home later than the time given by mum. Most of the time, i was laughed by my friends saying that im Cinderella cause i need to be home before 12 am.

I know some might say ' Aiya, go talk with your parents laa" etc...But, I just dont have the heart to talk to my mum about it. I know she will get upset and unhappy and feel uncomfortable. So, in the end, i just be like a sponge and absorb everything. I am very afraid that my parents especially mum said " Ok, i dont and wont control you anymore" or " Ok, from now onwards, you can do whatever you like. I dont care anymore". Im very scared whenever she said that to me.

I never really been to any midnite movies at cinema. The only time where i can go out till late nite is only when parents are following. Haiz....

Deep down in me, I just hope sometimes, I do have the time to enjoy like everyone else. I dont want to regret in the future. But, i know i can just hope and dream about it.

No matter what, I still love my parents and appreciate for all they are giving me. And, i know i shouldnt rant or complain. But , HAIZ....!!!!

Unbelievable....

OMG..I cant believe it.... Why?? Why??

Kris Allen won the season 8 of American Idol instead of Adam Lambert. As you noticed by now, yeah, im a Glambert`s fan...Im so disappointed to know that he din win. I even ask my colleague to let me use her pc to see d live blog over it.

Urghhh!!! In my opinion, i felt dat Adam deserved to be crown rather than Kris although Kris is a nice and talented guy but Adam is on a higher level.

Haih....!!!

On a happy note : YAY...its Friday tomorrow...yay yay

Bad bad days...!!!

Its been a bad days for me lately...First of all, Im stuffed with loads of assignment which need my immediate attention. To make things worst, my very "faithful" internet connection which is the STREAMYX sucked major time, where the connection decided to give up on me and leave me without internet for days....

How am i supposed to do my assignments??? Thank you so much for ruin everything, Streamyx. You SUCKED major time !!! So angry with them...

Luckily, Woofy got me the Celcom duno what plan that enable me to connect to the internet and here`s me - still doing my assignment at this hour and typing this post out.

Im so sleepy and tired now but what can i do??

Thats all for now, need to rush my assignment that i need to hand in by tomorrow...

Again....

Its been 9 days since my stupid connection gave up on me....

Its been 9 days since i can login to the net....

I cant do my assignment....I cant surf the net...

It is suckz....Stupid streamyx.....

Now, i can only online when im at college...

Urrghh...!!!!!!

Finally...

Been a bad week for me since Sunday. Im not been to myself since then. Its like i`ve lost myself. Been moody, sad and maybe even depression.

From studies to some conflict in my life. There`s seems nothing is going my way. Everything seems like out of order and track. Need to pick them up piece by piece. Slowly and carefully.

Guess black days will go away like heavy rain will stop. Something does make me happy today. Mum bought me a dress that i like without much manjaness. Thank you , mum.

Hehe. Finally, something is there to make me happy and i can forget those unhappy days for a while. =)

~Untitled~

No mood to blog.

Nothing to blog about.

How come others got so many things to blog about geh?

I`ve become so lazy ler.

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* Lost of words*

Unpredictable

Its really hard to understand human`s behavior. What you want is not what you get. When you have given out something or done something, people not necessary accept it or feel grateful for what you have or had done for them.

What is one actually thinking? We do not know. And certainly, not everyone are perfect. How can someone expect the other people to be what they want? Its so unpredictable. This minute, they can be extra friendly or normal and at the next minute, their behavior totally 180 degrees changed. Its like the weather at times. You wont know when the storm gonna happened even though there weather forecaster.

How come people tends to complaint about others bad points but not their own bad points? Is it as the old chinese saying " The mirror reflect others but not you"? How come its so unfair?

They tend to have their own thinking even though its not exactly the same as what the others are thinking? Can you just stand on others point of view and think? Can you please dont always think negatively and be so emotional? Other people will have different point of view. Not everybody will have the same thinking like yours.

What other says just let it be. Why you want to be so sensitive about it? How come you dont understand what Im trying to tell you and accept my explanation? How come you`re so bias?

Why you always expect me or everyone around you to understand your need and live up to your expectation? But when we asked you, you get frustrated and angry. Then you say those hard and harsh words. Isn't that too much? You kept saying that its not a god behavior but yet, you`re the one who show it.

And why people cant keep their mouth shut? Why want to bother people`s things and screw up people`s life? Why kept controlling people`s life and plans? Always want us to follow whatever you asked us to do.

WHY WHY WHY....All i want is just for you to understand and yet you have your own thinking and say me hurt you. Who hurt who? I tried to bear with you. I tried to swallow everything that you complaint. I tried to live up to your expectation. I tried. We tried.

Life is so unpredictable and so unfair.

Backie Backie...

Yeap...we`re back from our holiday...reached Penang on Monday night...It was a fun and enjoying trip...althou its short, but still Im having so much fun...

I had my 1st time moment during the trip (dun think senget haaa...) hee hee...will blog bout that later...and will post up some food we had during our trip also...

right now, its time to rush up my assignment....*sob sob*

so sad ler....so many assignments to do...so little time...and Im being the usual me - LAZY

better stop here....=) Have a nice day everybody

Lazy...

The laziness in me strikes again as its been sometime since my last post. Duno why, but Im getting lazy nowadays. I seldom sit infront of my PC now. Its my bad-est bad-est habit.Must change must change. Hee hee...

So, hows everyone this few days? Doing good? I hope you guys do. =) Well, as for me, nothing new. Everything`s the same as before except the semester had begun. Meaning, Im starting attending classes now but still good as its my short semester now. Very short, only 7 weeks of classes. The only thing not good is, very rushy.

Anyway, I havent went to Chili`s as posted in my last post yet. Woofy`ve been very busy with his work. No time to go out also. No yummy food for me this week. =( *sobsob* Who wana bring me out for makan session ler?

Thats all for now. Laziness come again. Wanna take a short nap. I know i know, its only 12 +pm. But Im sleeply ler. Woke up at 8am today to fetch my grandpa to hospital. Been doing this quiet often nowadays.

Till next update. Have a nice day. =)

Mou Mou Liu Liu....

Its 1:15 pm as Im typing this and I dunno what i wanna do...No plan, no direction....So mou liu ler....

I think Im goin to "grow mushroom" soon d...I`ve been lepaking at home for the whole week d as im having my semester break now....Haih...can someone gimme sumthing to do or ajak me go kai kai? Hee hee...

Everyday doin the same thing....Wake up ard 10 am den accompany mum to market...Home ard 12pm den online till 3-4pm...take a short nap till Woofy home from work...Sometimes, will go for kai kai...and sometimes, watching tv at home...

I suddenly have the urge to study now...Life`s so miserable ler...When I`m studying, I alwis think of holiday...Now Im having holiday, I wanna study...Ish... =.=

What to do?? What to do??