Grounded? Curfew? Protected?

Hmm...For those who know me well, they will know that Im the only child in my family. Which means, Im very well taken care by both of my parents especially my mum. And, Im very very much appreciate with what they have been giving me all this long. Their concern, love, care ....everything...

For, I know they want me to have the very best of everything that they can give me. So, Im very well "protected" by them. Im not boasting but sometimes, I do feel that its a little too over "protected" that I feel pressure at times.

For instance, I don`t always have the privillages to go out late nite with my friends or having nite life like most of my friends. However, I do understand the motive or intention by my parents. Their reason is being simple : they simply do not want their only child to be hurt by people or being bullied by other people. They scared for my safety. I really do understand.

I was given some green light from mum this few months for going out late nite with friends but however, i was given some time frame where i needed to be home by a certain time. But, most of the time, i failed to do so cause , i misuse the opportunity. And its my bad. But , i really enjoyed the time and will got home later than the time given by mum. Most of the time, i was laughed by my friends saying that im Cinderella cause i need to be home before 12 am.

I know some might say ' Aiya, go talk with your parents laa" etc...But, I just dont have the heart to talk to my mum about it. I know she will get upset and unhappy and feel uncomfortable. So, in the end, i just be like a sponge and absorb everything. I am very afraid that my parents especially mum said " Ok, i dont and wont control you anymore" or " Ok, from now onwards, you can do whatever you like. I dont care anymore". Im very scared whenever she said that to me.

I never really been to any midnite movies at cinema. The only time where i can go out till late nite is only when parents are following. Haiz....

Deep down in me, I just hope sometimes, I do have the time to enjoy like everyone else. I dont want to regret in the future. But, i know i can just hope and dream about it.

No matter what, I still love my parents and appreciate for all they are giving me. And, i know i shouldnt rant or complain. But , HAIZ....!!!!